Location: My couch
Time: 11:17 am
Mood (1 to 10, 10 = fantastic, 1 = absolutely horrible): 3. I'm kinda ok.
Last Meal: popcorn an hour ago
Current level of exercise: like 0
Meds: taken a bit later than usual
-Adderall: 15 mg took at 10:15 before putting lunch in the oven
-Prozac: 60 mg @ 10:15
-Coffee: one cup at 8:15
General schedule of the day: I have been trying to feel more awake. I took a shower though!
Objective: Not sure what I need to do...
Dump Zone:
I just kinda feel like my head is heavy....I feel nostalgic and I'm listening to Owl City, it makes me think of 8th grade and high school. I owned pretty much every album and single he ever made, until I graduated and kinda got out of the habit of buying his new stuff that came out.
I also feel kinda alone, I've messaged the writers' server and it doesn't seem like anybody's online at the moment. I was watching youtube most of the morning, I sat on the smaller couch on the other wall because the sun was shining in on me on the big couch and it was too bright and hot. I opened the window earlier to see if it was cool enough outside for a nice breeze, but it was the same, if not warmer, so I've turned the AC on.
My period's still going. It's weird, and if it goes any longer, I'm gonna call my gynecologist and tell them what I've been experiencing - only fresh red menstruation when I use the bathroom, no spotting on a pad or any darker blood. It's been since Friday last week that it started, and yesterday I didn't have any bleeding so I thought it was over, but when I went #2 this morning before my shower it was there again. I'm not freaking out, I'm just kind of like, "ugh, there better not be something wrong with me, that would be so annoying and I'd have to like, go be responsible and see the dr to take care of myself, but like...I don't feel like going all the way down to Anderson from Fairfield and her other office in Clifton is one I've never been to so it would be new..."
But now that I think about it, she had mentioned the last time I was there in September that her Clifton office had a new general practice doctor that was taking new patients, and that he could take Alex. I want to be able to get him a regular doctor because besides a blood work test this year and one a couple years ago, he hasn't had a checkup in way too long. I think about the future and know that I need to get that set up so that we don't get blindsided by something in 10 or 20 years down the road.
There's 7 minutes left on the oven, then I take out the lasagna and take the film off of the package and put it back in for 5 minutes.
I just feel tired and I know it's mostly because my adderall probably hasn't kicked in yet. but still. blegh. the feeling in my head is stuffy and like things will just pass me by and that I don't really want to do anything to change it... I know it sounds kind of depressing but I'm not really sad, just out of it and wanting to close my eyes.
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