Time: 12:27 (Alex just left after lunch)
Mood (1 to 10, 10 = fantastic, 1 = absolutely horrible): Part of this morning I was definitely feeling a 3 or so, in a kind of depressive funk where I couldn't really summon any positive thoughts that weren't tied to sad stuff that I couldn't avoid
Last Meal: I had half a Luna bar and I've been drinking water
Current level of exercise: I haven't done much tbh.
Meds: Took my meds all at the right times so far today
-Adderall: 15mg at 9:15am
-Prozac: 60mg at 9:15am
-Coffee: milk and instant coffee with splenda & sugar free caramel syrup
General schedule of the day: I unloaded the dishwasher and filled it with dirty dishes, a lot of them were pots and pans. Then I washed the things that were too big or that couldn't go in the dishwasher (I'm pretty sure my 2 cast iron pans haven't been cleaned in a couple weeks, so I made sure I scrubbed them and also heated them up on the stove to sanitize anything still on them after the hot water). I still have my wok from yesterday that I need to wash, and a couple skillets, but I feel confident I can do that today. :) I also want to take out the trash and hopefully fold and put away all the clean laundry I've gotten done the past couple days. Tonight is D&D so we'll probably head over right after he gets home and stay out late, so that means I need to get it done this afternoon so I have time to rest/relax before going and socializing from 6pm to 10 or 11, lol.
Objective: Have a good, relatively productive day with doing the housework that needs to be done as well as put some time into a creative project or some form of self-expression.
Dump Zone:
So yeah my period started this morning, I sent Heidi the email about how I was proud of how I handled the communication of this to Alex (since it's not with my cycle per the birth control, so we'll need to be careful aka use condoms the rest of the month), and there wasn't anything left unsaid or unsure for us to be awkward about at lunch, so we had a nice time. I heated up yesterday's shrimp fried rice for him and I did those dishes I talked about while he sat for a while. Then when I finished up filling the dishwasher and doing stuff, I sat by him and we watched another of those movie reviewer youtube videos. First it was one about Over The Hedge, that brought back memories of when we saw it as kids (it came out in 2006 so early in our first term overseas) and said this to my writer friends:
"He does a lot of animated movie reviews and I'm excited whenever my husband is interested in an animated movie xD like, he knows they're great, but when we can analyze why they are, I feel so valid for loving them"
and that was a high note, and so was the next video by him that we watched, which was about why "A Whole New World" is the best love duet in musicals. The way he talked about how instead of the song being all lovey-dovey—talking about romance and the feeling of falling in love—it instead focused on Aladdin giving Jasmine the chance to experience what she had been longing for her whole life, which was adventure. The youtuber summarized the reason that this was good as being because it established that Aladdin wasn't just shallow and wanting to get all lovey with her right off the bat, but that he truly cared for her and started their relationship by just providing for her and organically letting her fall in love with him. And that made me think, and I said to Alex, "It's just like us, when we met." He didn't jump into my text messages with anything aimed at romance, but he instead asked about my likes and dislikes and passions and interests, in order to get to know me. And that was the organic part. ^_^ happy happy feeling.
So now I'm sitting here with a little bit of cramps from my period and a big feeling of hunger in my throat...well, stomach I guess...I've been drinking water to counteract the dryness of the Luna bar but I could probably eat an actual meal if I made something.... Also Alex texted that he's still hungry so I want to get something hot to warm him up and drive it over to him. I suggested Smoothie King at first and he was like "ahh no, I'm already cold" lol. ugh I'm hungry. ok. I'll do something about that for now. :)
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