Location: My couch :) Lily's next to me asleep and I don't want to turn on my special lightbulb yet, but it's gonna get darker soon and eventually I will turn it on so I get all that sweet sweet vitamin D from the full spectrum lightbulb :P
Time: 5:00 PM, and daylight savings time just ended today
Mood (1 to 10, 10 = fantastic, 1 = absolutely horrible): Pretty great! Like, 8?
Last Meal: I had a bowl of frosted mini wheats for dinner. I've been making full meals with meat and stuff for Alex and just kinda snacking on breakfast food, like a bagel with nutella for lunch today, but I did eat more of a meal yesterday so that's good.
Current level of exercise: I'll be going shopping tomorrow. Also I'll be doing a good clean-out of my kitchen, especially my fridge, because it's been too long, and there's shtuff all over my counters and my stovetop is splattered and messy. It's gross. I'm finally drinking more coffee than I was before, idk if i mentioned this but trying to limit my caffeine to one cup of coffee in the mornings was not doing me any favors, and now that I've started having another cup at lunch along with the second dose of adderall at 2pm like before, I've had more energy in the evening versus wanting to nap at any point in the day because my brain was so tired that I could just shut down and sleep without any trouble...Like, even if having some caffeine at 5pm made it just a little bit harder to fall asleep on Friday (like I bet I was asleep in 45 minutes instead of the usual 15 or 20), it wasn't as hard on Saturday (more like 30 minutes), and I'm sure that tonight since the last caffeine I had was at 2 will be a gradually sleepy night... but yeah.
Meds: All normal and good, taken at the usual Sunday times:
-Adderall: 10:30am dose of 15mg, 2:30pm dose of 15mg
-Prozac: 10:30am dose of 60mg
-Coffee: one cup of French press coffee at about 10:45am, another cup at 3:00pm.
General schedule of the day: Woke up around 8:15 I think? Alex was still in bed... He had a sweet smile on his face in his sleep and I just kinda watched him for a little bit before I stood up and went to the door, and he heard me and opened his eyes and I said, "Love you!" and gave him the sign-language for ILY, and he smiled and whispered back, "Love you too!"
The rest of the morning I sorta fiddled around with reading a book or playing a game on my phone. After Alex got up he came out in his bathrobe and waved hi, and I knew he wasn't talking much because he has a pretty bad mouth sore on the inside of his lip, so when he patted his stomach and made a hopeful face, I knew what he was talking about and told him I'd fix him up some breakfast. I mean it was probably 11:00 or a bit later, and also my oven clock is still an hour ahead so I thought it was 12:00, lol. I made him a quesadilla with cream cheese, cheddar, salsa, and deli ham. Loooots of butter for the pan, and it made the tortilla nice and crispy. He likes it like that :) That's when I made myself the bagel with nutella on it. ugh nutella is just so fricking good.
I ended up curling up on the couch and tried to get Lily to sit next to me but she didn't for a while, and I just napped. I woke up a bit later and I can't remember what I was doing but probably watching youtube. Alex came out of the office and asked if I wanted to continue watching Breaking Bad, and I was like yeah!! so he took a shower and after that we watched episodes until 4:00. Then I went and cooked him some lo mein with chicken & veggies in it. I had bought lo mein noodles and a few packets of seasoning a few weeks ago from Jungle Jim's and I eventually found them in my cupboard where I put them. I think the sauce shoulda cooked a bit before I put it in with the noodles and the chicken that I had already cooked, but because I was trying not to use a lot of dishes (because most of them were dirty) I just kinda poured the sauce that I'd mixed with the packet and the soy sauce and oil it called for, instead of heating the sauce in a pan first. But I think it turned out ok.
Now I'm waiting to see if some of my writer friends from the discord server are going to come online. Nobody's been on all day. They're probably spending time with their families, I think.
Objective: I'm just kinda wanting to write a blog entry so that I record how today went, how I felt, and the things I did. It's been pretty good, even though I still am struggling to get cleaning done.
Dump Zone:
I've been thinking, and I think I have a lot of stuff. Our apartment isn't tiny, but the kitchen is so packed full of everything I have. There's also some empty spaces in there, and I should condense the areas that are more empty, because then I'd have another portion of the area under the countertop that I could use to store stuff. Right now, I have my tortillas and bagels on the counter, and the cans that I've bought recently are still in their grocery bags on the floor under the dining table where I dropped them when I brought them home.
If I could take the stuff I don't use every day and move it, I'd have more space to be able to put things away instead of them sitting out on the counter. Sound familiar? That's exactly what I realized about my bathroom. So that makes me think that I don't have enough storage containers to use for stuff I don't use every day. And along with that thought, there's probably some stuff that I could just get rid of entirely, if I don't use it enough to even open up the drawers they're stored in. Therefore it should be put in a box that's not taking up prime real estate.
I keep checking the discord chat, and no one is awake. I turned on some music from Spotify to fill the silence. I'm okay though, I didn't grow up with online friends for nothing, I'm understanding of the fickle nature of virtual communication, and everyone has their own lives and their own homes/families. So I can't know what's going on, and heck I'm not entitled to their presence for the purpose of my entertainment. Lol. I have other things I can do :) and I know I'll talk to them more during the week when they're online more often.
Also Alex wants me to definitely start back up with Shipt this week. I'm nervous, but I need to just jump into it and get myself the coffee I need, the meds I need, and the clothes for the job, and get in the car and drive down to Norwood or another area that has lots of orders coming in. Now that I think about it, I could check tonight to see if there are any orders open to be claimed already that are for tomorrow. I'll do that after I post this. But yeah. I've had to ask for money transfers twice, and it's because I haven't been working and I still have my own debit card and account. But yeah. I think that when I get out and do the work, I'll get into the zone and it'll feel good. Sure, I might feel nauseous after driving around all day like I have felt in the past, but after about 5 or 6 orders, I will have made enough for the day and I'll be able to head home with the confidence that I just got my stuff done and I'll be proud of myself. Alex will be too. But I need to do this for myself, not for him.
Ok it's getting too dark now. It's 5:31 and Lily is doing a cat bath so I won't feel bad if she gets off the couch after I turn on my lamp, because she woke up from her nap. :) I'm gonna post this now, but I want to write more tomorrow evening.
